(via anjy)
May 16th, 2012
i’m not happy with my body right now.
& for once it’s not just about my weight.
it’s everything.
April 21st, 2012
She has a very bad reputation. I dont know her, but Iv heard a lot of bad things about her
sometimes i really shouldn’t be nosy.
but at the same time, i don’t understand why people think this. i don’t do anything wrong. and if you’re always going to be judged for your past, whats the point of even trying with people. whats the point of trying to change their opinion of you? there’s not.
March 26th, 2012
i feel so ugly at times. how do you even look at me.
i feel like i’m wandering, waiting for the days to just pass. i think what i’m missing is contact. touch. because i just want to be told it’ll be okay and that you won’t leave.
February 26th, 2012
i spent the last six years of my life trying to forget your face and remember it at the same time.
random images keep playing through my head. and i can’t decide how to tell you, or even if i should. i don’t want it to upset you, i just want you to be aware.
but at the moment, i can’t put my experiences into words.
February 25th, 2012
i’m finding it hard to comprehend what just happened.
maybe that’s why i enjoy eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. because i tried to erase you. but you have defined who i am. and when you try to erase something that monumental, you start to wander lifelessly. not knowing who you are or why you feel so empty. why you’ve always felt so empty.
August 15th 2010
“you are no longer faceless or blurred
after all of the years i’ve spent mourning you
i’ve found you in the crowd
you were hidden and locked away
trapped in yourself
mourning me“
i’m starting to think about who i’ve become.. and why.
i’m in a state that feels like a continuous epiphany.
when you convince yourself that it never happened over and over and then six years later you’re standing by the milk cooler at work and what you’ve always wanted.. what you’ve always literally dreamed of happens.. how do you even react? i feel like crying and smiling and sleeping and i’m mostly just confused. you said you forgave me. this wasn’t in my cards. this wasn’t supposed to happen to me. and it did. and my heart is a little less broken.
January 13th, 2012
when you watch films you start to feel for the characters. so much so that you could watch a single clip and it could break your heart.. its earth shattering.. and you sit alone in silence and wish that someone else could understand. that someone else could feel what you feel. it’s changed something in you, even if it’s a singular thought or movement. you’re different somehow and you can’t figure out a way to put this into words.
January 11th, 2012
August 21st, 2011
i’m finding myself. and feeling good in my skin.
August 19th, 2011
i really need to start over.
